Tough Stuff

My poor daughter. So much of the first year of her life and her milestones are intertwined with bad news, death and mourning.

EvaKate is 6 months old today. And the post for that will have to wait until another day.

Today is a hard day. We've gotten news that Chris's grandpa (Arnold's dad) has been sent home given a couple days to live at best.

There has just been way too much death.

Josh got sent home with a project where he has to include 5-7 items that create strong memories for him. Between this and cleaning out a closet I have had several reminders of the loss our families have encountered in the last year and a half.

A picture of my grandpa looking all dapper in his pink tie at our wedding, a card for Josh's 1st birthday from Nancy calling him her "Joshy Buddy Rascal", a container of English bath soaps my grandma always had in her bathrooms that she had given me...it's just all been a lot.

One of the hardest parts was having Josh pick out things that induce strong memories (mainly pictures) and him including one of Nancy's funeral. I hate that my kid strongly remembers death and loss at age 6. How do you help a 6 year old process grief when you are still so new to it yourself?

Our family could use some prayer. We could use a bit of an emotional break, and some joy. More than anything though we need the Lord's presence and the peace, comfort and wisdom only He can bestow.